Well, I’m back. I’m terrible at keeping up with this blog, I’ve never been one to sit down and focus on something like writing. Too busy running around or too lazy after work. This blog has become my outlet more than an update for those who are interested. Instead it’s an anonymous place where I can log on express what I’m thinking and not have to worry so much about what someone thinks. True it’s not anonymous but I feel like I can write as if it is, without worry about pleasing anyone or offending anyone. It’s just me and my thoughts. I’ve always been a reflective person and curious about the inner being, maybe that’s why I loved psychology so much. I learned about every thought and fiber of a human being, what makes people tick. And what I’ve learned is that we are not all that different. Sure we each have our own personalities but just like any mammal when it come to our instinctive beings we are very much the same. This is what I’ve begun to notice about society and it saddens me, we are all the same…broken. Since my Dad died I feel like I’ve aged 50 years, I feel like such an old soul. I look around at friends and people my age, mid 20’s and think what is wrong with you? But this is not just the plight of 20 somethings, no this is a human epidemic and it took death to open my eyes. It makes me wonder why on earth God keeps us here, aren’t we living in the “end times” the Bible speaks of? What happened to neighbors loving neighbors, men opening doors, strangers willing to give another person a ride? How is it that the world seems to be deteriorating right before my eyes. I remember as a child and even into early teens how yes and no sir was what you said, how you played outside without fear of being abducted, how you only got to watch 1 hour of tv after homework and how those shows stirred up love not hatred, how people worked hard for a living, and how most people seemed good. No it wasn’t perfect or paradise it was still the world but somehow it was a little bit kinder back then. You can say well you were young and sheltered, that’s how most people remember their childhoods. But no, I’m the generation that has begun to shape society and it’s not in a good way. When I was in high school the first school shooting took place, now it’s become a common occurrence. I witnessed the first impeachment of a President for lying about an affair (and since then corrupt government is common place), I witnessed the rise in divorce rates to nearly 1/2 of all marriages, I witnessed gays be celebrated on tv, tv shows that promote lying, sex, violence, and drugs rise to #1, I witnessed the first terrorist attach on the USA, and that’s is just a few of the horrible memories I have in just a short 20 years. What is happening to the USA, a country that was founded upon God is now afraid to speak his name! I grieve at the thought of bringing children into this world of evil. Even church’s are becoming corrupt and losing their light. People are desperate for light in this dark world and it’s becoming harder to find. The more evil that enters the more Christians are being persecuted and the more God and Christ are being shunned. How shameful are we. I’m ashamed of my spoiled, incentive, and narcissistic generation. But can we blame my generation alone? No, where are their parent’s? Where was that wisdom of old? I thank God for this recession, it’s the best thing that could have happened to us. It made people wake up and realize possession aren’t everything and it’s made people turn back to God for help. Amazing isn’t it that in 2001 congress sang “God bless America” proudly on the outside steps, crisis made them open their eyes. But already they have forgotten and want to erase him from our money. Truly Amazing. But why is that? The Bible tells us this will happen, so why does it surprise us so. Instead we should embrace Christ in these changes and be thankful he is coming soon to save us. I have to laugh when people say go green and save the earth, or give to the animals and save them. We can’t save anything but yet we try. We are just purely treating the side effects and not the cause. If you have a disease and only treat it’s side effects you will die because you didn’t address the real issue. Same with this planet, these horrible side effects only mask the true disease, a Christ-less world killing itself. Sadness and shame are all I feel. Even I get sucked into the things of this world, just like everyone else, even though I know that I’m part of the disease. Treat the humans not the earth. But alas this is a battle we will not win, the world and all it’s sinful nature will die, that’s the truth. However we can rejoice that we will win the war, just like a good book we do have a happy ending in Christ.
So I guess I’ll just stick with the Hallmark channel and the sappy movies that always have happy endings and show the common human decency this world is lacking. It’s amazing the revelations I have had since experiencing death. I’ve let God use it for good and to change my heart and my desires for less of me and more of him. I’m glad it didn’t have to be my death for me to learn the lesson and I hope you don’t have to experience death in your life to learn this lesson. It’s never too late to make a new start. I can feel the changes in the air this new year, I know their will be some powerful lessons learned by many in 2009.